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 on the way out, i saw lady from the cottage sitting in the grass. went pppppp to call her but grey squirrel came out instead. yelled at me, marked the bag, had an itch.

on the way back i saw a cat sitting by the plant/wasteground, who i called to as well but they looked at me and bolted. maybe one day. they were black with the thickest chunkiest fur ive ever seen. probably a tom.

then back in the street i saw the new black with red collar that ive been slowly trying to get to know, and they actually started to approach!!!!! but then changed their mind ans stepped back a lil. from behind them came another guy, small and equally curious. small as in kitten. not petit. very curious but skittish also. then a woman opened the front door of that house and said "thats where youve got to!" yep they live there and were exploring apparently. also while me and the wo.an were talking a third guy crept from under a parked car while the first two went to frolick. dont frolic!!!! the human servant is worried!!!

there was a fourth cat but ive forgot them.

perhaps a new neighbour cause theres no way R would have that massive dog, and the small dog, and a cat, plus four brand new cats. hope everyones ok

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 somehow the term nonverbal made it onto this very normal one-size-fits-all course so im convinced even more that actuallynonverbal are gonna get ignored and ostracised.

some dude in an office heard the term and was like thats a good way if saying it lets put that in every body language course ever

sigh

nonverbal the condition

nonverbal the wheeee lets us on the outside take this word and shout about it

.............can i even say out loud in class that im offended by the term used??????

that and using neurodiversity without putting the coiners name on it in brackets like its a fucking scientific paper

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 also i debriefed about the beloathed skills vs qualities 

and that i was informed by longhair that they did not want to debate nor was there a correct answer

and that i picked calm out of qualities and said that you could train yourself to be calm if thats not how you are naturally

and if you cant then why doesnt someone say no the fuck you cant

you can train and change any trait and you can suppress wanting to flip the table and the brain is a muscle so you can teach it to be creative and i am goddamn not "naturally" creative i had to WORK and also does the word natural even mean that when said by allistics or is it just the social praise of "youre a natural!" turned into a single word

natural is when you want to scream after touching the forbidden texture. training/skill is not screaming but performing a more socially acceptable response

and and and i do have to focus hard in class otherwise i wont even percieve the tutor..... and then of course

you know what? i want the safety of being allowed to zone out and still have all the material available for me to read. to wear radio static in my ears for the whole leason so that i dont hear anyone talking.  

to have a handout just given to me with no context and be like hey were working on this now

so like why dont we have the print outs?????? "they didnt print them" whos they. wouldnt you stay after class to photocopy and print tomorrows lessons? who orders new paper? cant you walk down the road to the supermarket and grab a pack from there? 

is the fucking lsp hanging out all day and getting paid for it

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 i hit delete all in my inbox

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 to be handed a goddamn post it note saying iz can i borrow you

aaaaaaaaaaaaaa i want i want i want writing as normalllllllllllllllllll

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thee doores lockkkeedd oh moooeeee


principal!!!!! my education is important!!!!!!!

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 *walks into shop*

...WHO WATCHES OVER YOU MAKE A LITTLE BIRDHOUSE IN YOUR SOUL

*song ends*

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uwa uwa